Celebrating our viewers!

Hello my darling Kinks!

Neo and I just noticed the blog has hit over 10,000 views today and we're very honored!  Thank you to all of you who took the time to visit, follow, and comment.  We appreciate you all.  We've enjoyed sharing the intimate bits of our marriage with you.

Now for the celebratory photo...

Nastassja is ready for her spankings...how about 1 per thousand?  

Dirty Twitter Day (Part 2)

If you haven’t read part one, you should go do that now and then come back ;)

Back in the hot tub again I am massaging my back.  He’s fucked me to jello limbs and the jets bring me back to life.  We talk again about the fact that he wants to cam again now that the first time is out of the way.  He wants to see if he feels more comfortable.  We are both amazed and laugh at how much I enjoyed it once the cam was on and the initial nerves were gone. When we get back inside this is how I found our bedroom and it was a big, messy turn on!

We spent a little while cleaning up and I put on my favorite panties.

On Twitter that day, someone had once again mentioned ‘TheStory of O’ and so I put it on the big screen for us.  We relax in bed and watch the movie and he turns our cam back on in the main chat room…afterall, there are many people doing such ordinary things in there also.  Plus, I rub his chest and his bulging pants while I watch the movie.  The movie is a good choice and gets me turned on again. About halfway through I can’t resist his cock any longer.  I make my move down to remove his pants and we are making our own show.  Someone on the chat says “Finally you two!” Haha!  It’s a lighthearted atmosphere and I can dig it.

I continue to suck and tease Neo’s cock and he is hard for me pretty fast.   Before we go any further, he gets up to pee and I use the opportunity to check out some more features on the chat.  I notice there are some “rooms” but very few people in each.  I click on one with the word "naked" in the name and open up the cams in there.  It’s a couple of guys and I’m not sure what they are watching, but I leave us in this room.

I tell Neo we are going to put on a more private show and see what happens.  He lays back down and I start giving him a blowjob to make anyone jealous.  I deep throat him and get him all sloppy wet and start jerking him with my hands.

He grows to full on hardness and I feel my thighs get wet.  I’m sucking and slirping him down with a fever.  I have to stop more than three times and tell him, “No no baby, not yet.”  When he's just where I like him, I get up onto him and sit down on his hard cock.  I throw my head back in ecstasy as he fills me completely.  I lift my tits out of my nightshirt and let them hang down for him to suckle my nipples.  I turn the cam to us so they can see and I notice the attendance in the room has jumped up from 3 to over 20. There are also a couple of comments asking me to look at their cams.  I ride Neo for all I’m worth, grabbing the headboard and thrusting my hips back and forth very quickly over him.  He’s under me squeezing my tits and making sounds of encouragement “Yes, baby…yes, like that. “  I break for just a second to open up two or three of the cams who have politely asked me to look.  Two of them are guys with hot bodies and large dicks and boy oh boy I am turned on. I ride Neo harder, lifting my feet up closer to his chest and sliding up and down on the length of him.  I go really slow a few times, because Neo loves the feeling of my pussy sliding over him slowly and this way they can see how long my man is. He smacks my ass a few times as I put my hands on his chest and fuck him like he’s done to me earlier in the day.

When I’m out of breath, Neo rolls me over and puts me in front of the camera with my legs spread wide for them all.  It’s my turn to feel overexposed, but his desire makes me agree to try.  I can’t see the screen at all from this position and he leans over me to lick and eat my pussy.  I feel myself relax with each lick. When Neo comes up he tells me to wave to the camera.  I do this without question and then realize it has been a request.  Since we have no sound on, someone has asked for me to wave if I want him to come for me…and I have done just that.  Naught Neo!

He comes up and kneels next to me, cradles my head, and puts his dick in my mouth.

At that moment, there is nothing else except him and I greedily take him again.  He uses his other hand to spread my pussy lips and rub my juices over my clit.  It feels so good, this is one of my favorite positions to be in and I’m turned on again by them watching.

I ask him for my elephant (aka rabbit) vibrator and he grabs it and pushes it inside me.  I continue to suck his cock getting him wet again and using my hand I squeeze him tight.  I use my other hand to grab the vibrator and take it from Neo.  I use it to fuck myself as if nobody was watching.  I feel my orgasm building again from deep inside.  The vibrator oscillates inside of me while I push it in and out quickly and the elephant trunk hits against my clit with each thrust.  My arm gets tired; I am thrusting the dick into me so hard and I relax as I explode into a body jolting orgasm.  My hand stays squeezed on Neo’s cock and I suck on him while I ride it out. 

He’s been teased enough and tells me to get on my knees again.  He positions me where he wants for the camera, smacks my ass for them, and pushes into my wet pussy.  I love this moment when he enters me after I’ve just orgasmed.  It makes me beg for him to fuck me hard.  I’m sore from earlier and it makes me feel so naughty to be pushing my limits and doing it again.  I turn around and suck his cock again. I push him down and sit on him again, froggy style, and he lays under me with wonder on his face, not believing what I’m doing.  How long, how fast, how much more can I fuck him in one day?  He gets behind me again to fuck me for the big finish.  Each thrust into me feels deeper and more deliciously painful than the next.  I scream for him to cum for me and end my torture.  He slams against me one last time and I turn to swallow him, grabbing his cock and holding onto him.  His knees want to give out, but I hold him up with my arms as I keep him in my mouth. 

There is that big smile on my face again.  He has to lie down.  There are some grateful chat messages and I tell them “thanks, see you next time” and leave the room. 

Now after all of this, I have missed the ending of ‘The Story of O’ and I need to rewind and watch it.  The movie is fantastic, by the way ;) 

We wash up again…but do you think we are done yet?  Somebody on Twitter gets naughty with me and we do something very new.

What is going on here???

(Part 3 coming tomorrow...)

Toy chest lock up - Formspring Friday

I was recently reading a Formspring Friday question on Violet and Rye's blog, Uncommon Appetites, asking about toy cleaners and how they store their toys in general.  Go check out their post and come on back!

This made me think of our toy chest and I thought I'd share with you all what we do and a little dilemma I have. 

We bought this chest years ago but the house we lived in was very cramped and it was stuffed with old blankets. We moved recently and our bedroom is now more open and suddenly I have this great chest to use!  Moving also gave me an opportunity to empty out my nightstand drawers of the lubes and toys that were packed in there and throw out the old stuff. This also coincided with a pretty big sex toy shopping trip, so Neo thought we should use our chest for some of our goodies.  

Some of our collection

The lube, my smaller vibes, and my Hitachi are still in my nightstand because it's much easier to reach for them in a moment of passion.  But, the chest for the larger play items and bondage stuff is really handy. (Unfortunately the spreader bar doesn't fit in it!)

A little while back I realized I had some toys that probably got ruined sooner than they should have because they were touching, so I bought some silk fabric and sewed a few bags.  That project got delayed a bit from the moving, but a few bags I finished turned out pretty nice. The only issue I'm having is not being able to readily see what is in each one, so I have to go by feel or just open each one up.

As far as cleaning goes, I use soap and water and dry them with a lint free towel or let them air dry.  I do have some Lelo spray toy cleaner that I have used a few times and I like the stuff.  There have been a few times that I wanted to give a toy a spray right before use, just as an extra precaution because I can be somewhat of a germaphobe. Also the Lelo and the real cyberskin have a different surface on them which I like to use the spray on. 

~The Dilemma~

A real (or imagined?) problem I'm having is Neo and I are leaving for a 5 day cruise next week (I may have mentioned this on Twitter a few times because I am SO excited!) and our five kids (21-12 year old) will be here at the house. They are good kids, but you never know if they will snoop. Kids are curious and they all know that their parents are in this bedroom A LOT and without any details they also know why. We talk about everything with them, but I'm still a Mom and I feel like I should lock this stuff up somewhere when we leave!  The chest does not have a lock and it would ruin it to put a big padlock on it.  I'm going to think of something!  

Collar, leash, cock rings, flogger, leg straps, etc.

Dirty Twitter Day (Part 1)

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It was the day after our first cam experience.  We were still hot for each other after that night and played with each other on text all morning teasing each other with what we liked about it.  I started to flirt with others on my Twitter, especially a few guys as he had asked me to do.  The sext play kept going late in the afternoon and Neo turned up the heat on Twitter.  I took a shower and when I got back I saw a few tweets from him:

Neo: “I think it would be best if I didn't come straight home from work today, I would rather watch my young love try out her new wings. Fly free!”

Nat: that's sweet of you, but I do think you need to get home and handle this! <----

Neo: there are no words to describe how much I am turned on by you today. WOW

Nat: show me

Neo: slowly open our chest and remove the rope and lay it at the foot of the bed.

Nat: *GULP*

Neo: put my crop in your mouth and bite down. When I text you "dirty little whore" you will know I'm in the driveway

...there will be no words spoken, you will not ask, you will not answer, you will only do as I command.

…put on your red high heels and colorful silk nighty. You will be on your knees at the foot of the bed.

…hands on the floor, your black collar lying on the floor in front of you next to your leash. Do it now!

… and just to add a little excitement remove the silk scarf from the closet and lay it around your neck under hair

…the house better be empty when I get there, I don't want the police called. From your screams you asked for it

Nat: *answers a tweet here and gets in trouble!*

Neo: I said not to speak!

I hurry to shower and dress for him.  I think I see his truck pass by the bathroom window so I throw a scarf around my neck and kneel down.  With the crop in my mouth, I keep hearing my phone (which was plugged into the wall across the room) *bleep* at me…either from a Twitter or regular text.  I get up more than once, heart pounding in my throat that he might catch me not on my knees, just to see if it's a message from him.  It isn't and I hurry back to kneeling.  I think he’s in the driveway the entire time making me wait.  I stare at the light coming from under the bedroom door so that I might catch his shadow before he touches the door knob.  Nothing.  I listen to every little noise the house makes hoping to hear a far off door,  a footstep, or perhaps our dogs signaling he’s home. Nothing.  Minutes pass and my knees get sore.  I am determined to follow his instructions after he put so much effort into his plan.  I rock my body side to side and try to settle my mind.  My jaw starts to ache from the crop which feels heavier by the moment.  I use my hands to help lift the weight.  I am determined not to complain and do this.  Finally, another text *bling* and it startles me.  I debate, but I have to check it.  I see his message "I'm here."  I quickly get back on my knees.  (Turns out it wasn't his truck I saw.) 

A nervous giggle starts to form deep within me.  I haven’t been this nervous since I don't know when.  I still don’t hear his truck, nor do any dogs give him away.  I am beginning to wonder how much longer I could wait on my knees like this when the backyard door to our bedroom opens.  The bright sunlight makes me squint, but I keep my eyes open enough to see his devilish smile as he takes in the sight of me.  He has skipped going through the house, that’s why I didn't hear anything. He wastes no time coming over to me and passes behind me. My pent up anticipation comes out as nervous laughter through my teeth locked onto the crop.  Immediately he pulls the black scarf from under my hair and wraps it twice around my head stealing away my sight. 

Cell phone pic he took

With sight removed, my laughter stops and I relax.  He rubs his hand over my bottom and gives me a smack on each cheek, hard.  I flinch from the blows.  I know that was for speaking earlier.  Then he kindly removes the crop from my mouth and begins rubbing it on my bare bottom.  He spanks me a few more times with it and it stings.  I yell “Ow!” but that only gets me more spankings.  He reminds me not to speak, again.  I hear him walk over to the dresser and remove his belt and some things from his pockets.  It gets quiet for a moment; I suspect this is when he took a few pictures of me. 

He bends my head back and kisses me gently. Then, grabs my hands and lifts me to stand up.  He spins me around and sits me in our low bedroom chair and he puts a collar on me.  I rest here while I hear him undressing.

Our sexy chair

I feel him between my legs as his hands part my knees and run up my thighs. He pulls my panties off slowly.  With no warning, I feel his tongue on my pussy licking my wetness. I moan and touch his soft bald head.  He only does this long enough to tease me then he is away again.  I feel his touch on my nipples, he pinches them.  I hear a door open and close, not sure of which one it is.  I feel him push the blindfold off my nose and kiss me again.  I smell my sweetness on his lips.  He crosses my arms in front of me and I hear the Velcro and understand he’s putting on my cuffs.  He’s very gentle and slow putting them on, letting the anticipation build.

He grabs my hands and pulls me over to the bed, laying me down onto my front.  I feel the softness of the flogger drag down my spine, ass, and legs. I tremble a little knowing what comes next.  He starts to whack me with the flogger left side to right in even strokes.  It doesn't quite hurt, but feels shocking to the skin. My entire body is flogged and my nerves are on edge.  He flips me over to my front.  

I can’t help him position me much with my hands cuffed, but he’s strong enough to grab my hips and push me into place so that I’m fully in the center. I feel the weight of him as he leans over my body and grabs my cuffed writs to thread the rope through the loops. I hear the rope zipping through the loop as he pulls enough to winds it around one of the bedposts.  Using it as a pulley my arms are lifted above my head.  He takes his time working the rope all over the bed posts, down and around to the ones on my feet.  He straps my ankles into soft cuffs and wraps the rope around my ankles and feet, through the cuff loops, and secures them each to a post, pulling them wide and making sure I have no slack to lift my legs.  I test the rope and its firm. I hear something click and suddenly the Hitachi is on my pelvis and I’m gasping for air.  He puts it on low and pushes it onto me where he’s found I like it, just above my clit and on my pelvic bone.  It feels like the weight of a hand holding it on me and I grind myself on it, both for pleasure and to alleviate any soreness the massive vibrations can start to cause if held too long in one place.  I am lost in this intense feeling when suddenly I feel the most gentle of kisses coming from above my head onto my lips.  It takes me by such surprise I gasp out loud and suck in a large amount of air from his mouth.  It feels like there is a hand holding the Hitachi from below my legs, but how can that be?  Are there two in this room or three?  Was that a door I heard earlier? It’s confusing for a few moments, but my mind settles as I know he wouldn’t surprise me with another without my agreement. 

His hands wander down  around my breast and he lifts my nighty to reveal my perked up nipples.  He sucks on each one hard, then licks them, then sucks again. I’m writhing from the nipple play and the Hitachi moving down on me.  He moves back around to my feet and removes the Hitachi.  I think it’s over but he’s added the g-spot attachment and I feel him insert it and he starts to fuck me with it.  The whole thing is making me excited but I’m feeling sore from all of the vibrations.  I risk talking to call Yellow and ask for his cock instead.  Thankfully, he understands and pulls it away rubbing me with his hand.  He loosens the rope on my feet to give me a little slack, and then I feel his weight on me as he enters me.  I’m so wet he slides all the way in.  We are both so hot he doesn’t take his time here long.  He starts fucking me proper.  I can’t get one of my legs up all the way, but I’m pushing my hips up into him lifting myself off the bed.  I pull against my tied arms for leverage.  He releases the rope on my ankle cuffs and I feel my legs lifted by the straps connecting them.  He puts the strap over his neck and I'm able to rest my legs around his back as he enters me again. 

He leans forward and my legs lift.  He separates my wrist cuffs and pushes his forearms onto mine pinning me onto the bed as he fucks me harder than before. I curl my pelvis up so he hits me even deeper with each thrust.  Each time he pulls the length of him out, the tip of his cock flicks over my g-spot and I want him to slam into me faster and faster.  The scarf slips just enough so that my right eye has a view of his chest and shoulder above me.  I focus on this part of him and I see his breath going faster as he speeds up.  I’m screaming for him just like he promised I would.  I turn my head to the right and find his forearm close enough to suck and bite down on the soft inner flesh.  He groans and misses half a beat.  I suck on his arm harder as he pushes into me and builds up a sweat.  I feel his sweat drip onto my chest and I know he’s close.  Without missing another beat, he grabs the Hitachi and forces it between us and I am out of control pulling on all my bindings and shaking my head side to side.  I relax my hips as my orgasm builds from the inside.  I cum on him screaming and shaking uncontrollably.  He pulls out and cums on my entire body.  I feel hot cum splashing me over and over:  left breast, middle of the chest, belly button, back up to my chin, right breast, and a pool of it drips down my clit.  He rubs his warm cum over my clit with the tip of his cock and I am a mewling mess lying there at his mercy. 

Gently, he lifts my blindfold and I give him the best smile I can muster.  I’m spent in such a lovely way.  I blink slowly and enjoy watching his naked, glistening body untie me one post at a time.  He says I can speak now.  I have nothing much to say…except, “that was a lot of cum.”  We take a shower together, but I say this will not be enough water therapy; I need the hot tub, too.  He agrees to soak with me because I don’t like going alone.  The hot tub feels so good on my achy muscles; we stay out there a long time and talk about the night before.

He wants to try something again…  (Part 2 coming tomorrow, Part 3 the following day!)

What our bed looked like when we got back inside. 

Load out

Got a call at 4am from our older kids saying they blew a tire on the interstate. So, we are headed to pick them up at about 2 hours away from home.
In times like these what can I do to help relieve the stress for Neo?  I pull his cock out and start rubbing him for an hour. Then, it gets so heated I ask him to pull over so I can suck him proper. 
Exit the highway and pull into a dirt drive. This was the sign. 
After he had an amazing screaming orgasm in my mouth we had to take a picture.

TMI Tuesday: ...The Most Times - June 12

This week's TMI Tuesday theme is...

We want to know the thing you've done the most times.

1. What sex position have you been in the most times?
I thought I didn't have just one, but then I remembered, DUH! between Neo's legs giving him a blowjob.  What's more interesting is, did you know he doesn't like the word "blowjob"?  Suggestions for me here?
Anyways...this HAS to be my answer because I do it in the morning, at noon, and at night...with or without intercourse, with or without getting the favor returned, in the car, in a boat, in the shower, and at all times during sex.  Let's just say I really really like it. a. lot.

2. What book have you read...?
I can't recall ever reading a book more than once.  I LOVE to read, but I have a thing about "more than once" with books, movies, stories people tell...repetition is generally a turn off for me in every day life things. 
I have read The Hobbit AND listened to it on audio book (which was incredible)....so I'll go with that. 

3. What movie have you watched...?
Ok, my rule about more than once does apply still here, but back when I was younger I watched Top Gun and Dirty Dancing over a hundred times each.  I wore out some VHS tapes. I know every line. 

4. In the last week, who have you texted...? (no names, list the relationship or type of person)
That's very simple.  Neo. I text him constantly.  Occasionally, I text my kids to come to my room, go do some laundry, or get something from the store for me.  (Hey, it works!)  And, I have one girlfriend that says hi to me once a week or so. 

5. In the last week, what food have you eaten...?
Peanut butter and Jelly.  I'm on a pb&j kick right now. As a matter of fact, I'll go have one now, I'm starving! Did you know peanut butter has gotten very expensive?

6. Today, which website have you visited...?
TMI Tuesday!

7. When dining out, where have you eaten...?
Sonny's BBQ   Love the corn nuggets and the salad bar.  The baby back ribs are my favorite, too...

8. Which sex toy have you used...?
my little bullet.  It's my go-to toy when I'm on the edge and need a little help, when I'm bored and wanna play, when-ever. 

Bonus: Is there something you'd love to go back and relive in your sexual past?
No.  For me the past is the past and I'd like to keep it there.  Everything I am doing NOW is much mo'bettah.  Thinking back I would like to tell you about my first time with Neo one day.  


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TMI Tuesday: Think Kink! June 5 (belated)

Hello and welcome back to TMI Tuesday with Nastassja :)  I'm going back a week since I haven't been keeping up lately.

1. What is the kinkiest thing about you, either mentally or physically?
I don't think I have found the kinkiest thing about me yet, but so far I would say...Mentally: I like to be in the submissive frame of mind, yielding to everything he wants.  Physically: I love to be tied up and used up. I enjoy a little pain with my pleasure and lots of dirty talk. 

2. Do you have any fetishes? If so, what are they?
In the true definition of the word, "a non-sexual object whose presence is required for sexual arousal or climax" - No, I do not.  But, if Neo were to develop a foot fetish I would be all for that!  I love my feet played with...me love you long time.  I could however get into some WOOKIEE fetish.  Am I right?

3. Have you ever been spanked? Did you enjoy it?  Tell us more...
Yes, and I love it when done right.  I don't like it too hard or too much (my definition of it...which Neo has learned perfectly). I want to be red, but not marked or bruised. For me I enjoy more the surprise of it and not knowing when it will happen than taking an actual beating repeatedly. Over the knee spanking is fun, but we haven't explored a lot of that as far as me being punished and put over his knee.  I end up laughing...which is also fun. 
I also love pussy spanking and a good strong one on the ass when he's behind me doggie style.  YOWCH!

4. Have you been tied up, or tied someone else up? Did you use rope or restraints?
Yes, he ties me up with a lovely, soft rope and also with restraints that he loops the rope through.  He winds the rope around objects in our room and uses it like a pulley system.  He's very talented and I would like some more now please!  
I am going to tie him up soon and will report back ;)  He wants it, bad.
We have a spreader bar a friend made for us, but haven't used it yet...stay tuned.

My rope

5. Would you classify yourself as more dominant, submissive, a switch or entirely vanilla?
Probably a switch because I can do both and when the moment strikes I can be very dominant.  It was the first "kinky" thing I remember doing...being dominant for my man.  I recently discovered I really LOVE being submissive and I think because it is new I want to do that more right now.

6. What's the kinkiest thing you've ever done?
That's hard to say...I guess looking at it from the point of view "What thing would I not want to confess to my vanilla friends?"  That would probably be DP (both- double pussy and one in each).  I have experienced double penetration with Neo and a dildo and I would like to explore this further...  Yes.  

7. Have you been to a BDSM club? What was it like? If not, would you ever go to one?
No, I haven't and I'm not sure if I would want to.  If I could feel safe just to watch for my first visit, then yes I'd go and see what was a turn on for me and what wasn't.  

8. What's your favorite fetish item or implement?
Rope and our flogger.  They both can be soft and harsh.  I love the two extremes. 

9. Favorite kinky clothing material?
I love the feel of that faux leather that's stretchy.  I'm not sure what it is.  It's black and shiny and looks good on a body.

10. Thigh boots - love 'em or hate 'em?
I could love them if I ever found a pair to fit me.  It's not a priority though.  I've kinda given up on them and gone to thigh high stockings instead. 

11. If you're kinky, who knows about it?  Do you tell people or is it a closely guarded secret?
Two couples that are our best friends know.  We all talk about our kinks.  It's fun conversation!  The six of us are going on a cruise in 9 days...THAT should be interesting ! Couple 1 are open (to our group) swingers  and Couple 2 are not swingers, but have some fantastic stories!

12. What are your personal limits?
No breaking the skin or leaving marks such as bruises.  Neo likes to leave hickeys on me lately and I've been ok with that.  I'm not into shame and humiliation and all that goes with it.  Choking is ok, but not if I can't breath for more than a few seconds. 
I'm still learning my limits, which can be quite a challenge.  Sometimes it brings out your childhood demons. 

13. What's your safeword and why did you choose that one?
We use two. Yellow, meaning: that's not going to be good if you keep doing that, but don't worry I'm OK.  And Red, meaning: stop immediately and regroup! 
We tried using just one word but it didn't work for us because I needed that middle ground.  We are testing out things that can be painful, but I enjoy some of that pain.  So, Neo needed a better understanding of what was going on with me.  In the past, whenever I would make "any" noise (or even gave a look) that could be even be considered close to painful he would back off and flinch, scared that the entire evening could be ruined.  Not so anymore. 

14. Which fetishes do you just really not get?
Probably the diaper thing and anything having to do with poo.  I don't feel I have to "get" it though...as long as you're not harming others then go for it. 

This I don't get. Where can we get one?

Bonus: Complete this sentence:  To me, Fetish, Kink, and BDSM means...Exploring the possibilities.



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Video chatting, Part two

If you're interested in Part One, go here.

I had an unusually busy day, came home and found Neo lying across our gorgeously made bed.  He’s on his stomach with his feet towards the door when I walk in.  His long lean body is completely nude and looks fresh from a shower.  His front is propped up on a pillow and he’s no doubt playing on Twitter with his phone.  I walk around the bed to face him and smack his ass.  I know he’s been waiting for that.  Then, I lean down for a quick kiss and ask him to move over.  We lie facing one another knees to head, but don’t really say much. I'm still in my t-shirt, jean shorts and tennis shoes. He rubs lightly down my thigh and down my calf.  It sends shivers up my body and I roll onto my front for comfort.  I mention I have a still have the migraine since the night before and nothing has helped today.   His hand moves over my lower back in that little dip that is so sensitive, moving my t-shirt out of the way and inching his fingers in the dip of my shorts.  He moves to rub my head at the temples relaxing me further.  Then, he gets up and I just lay there forcing myself to keep this relaxed mood.  I find it difficult not to open my eyes, not to talk to him about his day.  I hear him moving about the room and in the bathroom.  I hear his cup and the pouring of a drink.  I envision myself as tied up and it helps my mind rest.

I feel him climb on the bed and the bristles of my large, round curling brush going down the side of my head and pull my long hair out over the duvet.  The feeling is so intensely sexy and deeply relaxing, I moan for him in appreciation.  He bushes a pattern through my scalp and makes my hair fan out across the bed.  Each pull of the brush relaxes me further.  He does this a long time, then I switch to the other side and he continues.  It’s so sensual.  I mention he hasn’t brushed my hair in a long time.  He says he doesn’t know why.  

After a time, he gets up and I realize my migraine is gone.  I dare not move because I want to keep this feeling.  Still on my front, he pulls my legs down the side of the bed until I’m at my knees.  Then he places a towel underneath me up to my thighs and removes my shoes and socks.  I wiggle my toes at him. He pulls our small bedroom chair up to my feet and he takes our coconut oil jar and pours a little down my right calf very slowly and down to my foot.  He slides the oil around gently at first letting me enjoy the sensation of his hands sliding over my skin.  He pushes the oil all over the dry areas of my feet, and then starts to massage me up my calves and down to my feet.  He pays close attention to every inch, every muscle and bone in my foot, and takes great care not to cause any discomfort.  He’s a master at this craft and I’m so delighted.  He repeats the sexy pouring of the oil onto my other calf and repeats his ministrations over my legs.  He bends my leg up at the knee and pushes it towards me forcing a nice slow stretch.  Then, he puts my leg down gently resting my toes on his thigh and he moves to massaging my thighs about half way up each one as far as he can to my jean shorts.   When he’s done I move onto my side and curl up into a ball.  He sits beside me and rubs my back for a minute.  It’s been over an hour since he’s been home and we haven’t said more than 10 words.  We both seem to need some relaxed silence. 

We move to our hot tub and after a short time we finally started talking.  The subject of our membership to the online cam site came up again.  We had agreed earlier in the day that we were both up for it.  He was surprised I agreed and was making sure I still wanted to go through with it.  I told him what I needed from it for it to happen, that I had made my mind up and I didn’t want him to let me back out unless I said a specific phrase.  A safe word, if you will.  We continued to talk about it back in the house in our shower together.  This was the moment it became real for me standing there naked with him. “ I’m really going to do this?”, I thought.  Yes, I was going to push myself and not chicken out.  If I seriously freaked, I knew he’d be there for me.  He washed my body and I washed his, the soapy lather turning us both on.  He helped me dress in a simple, see through nighty and he put on his silky pants I love so much.  My moment of panic was gone and replaced with excitement.  I put on our music adjusted our lighting and we were ready.

Let's do this!

 The chat room was brought to life on his laptop screen.  Our own camera was on pause and he wouldn't turn it on until I was ready.  I got into bed next to him and he turned it on.  A few people said Hi to us.  Neo told them this was going to be our first time and to please be kind.  I didn't see any responses.  He was clicking on cams trying to find a nice couple or two, I presumed.  I started to rub him through his silky pants and play with the hem pushing it lower and lower.  I rubbed the sexy bit near his hips and up to his chest and played with his nipples a little.  I kissed his hips and up to his nipples where my hands had already led the way.  Then, I pulled his pants down exposing him and quickly grabbing him with my hand and putting him into my mouth.  I held him with one hand while I kissed and sucked on his balls.  I noticed he was watching the screen too much so I asked him to look at me and don’t worry about what they are doing or saying.  He relaxed and I continued licking up and down his cock like a little kitten.  Then I took the head into my mouth and sucked it in and out over and over.  I suddenly went all the way down deep throating the entire length of him and he sucked in air.  I got him nice and wet and used my hand to rub up and down with my mouth.  I increased speed until I saw his toes curl, then I slowed down and kissed his belly. I noticed on the screen a few comments to me “Good job!”, they said.  I completely loved it!  I took a moment to rub his body, then I went back sucking and stroking him some more. He was panting and ready for me, but I tried taking my time and letting him have it good.  A few times he was distracted by the chat room, but I took it as a challenge to bring him back.  I wanted him at full attention so I could have my way with him. Finally, I moved him to sit on his dick and I used my hand to rub him up and down my wet pussy.  He was surprised at how wet I was.  I smacked him against me and then sat down all the way. He grabbed my tits and held on while I used my pelvis to grind deep.  My g-spot was getting a lot of attention and I was totally showing off.  I saw my large hips on the screen moving pretty fast over him.  I grabbed our headboard and used it to hold myself up while he took a turn fucking me from below.  

Neo grabbed my hips, flipped me over, and pulled me at an angle to the camera so I couldn’t see anymore.  Then, he lifted my knees up and gave me the look like I was about to get it.  I was so turned on by him and being watched.  He plowed into me and I screamed.  He continued to fuck me into submission until I was dizzy and out of breath.  I forgot about the camera and it was just us two.  He gave me the Hitachi and I pushed it between us and had an intense orgasm all over his dick.  I was shaking uncontrollably.  The drops of sweat pouring from his head brought me back to reality.  Finally, I opened my eyes and saw him there and a huge smile came across my face. 

“On your knees,” I obey of course.  

Always waiting for him

He turns us to another angle so he can watch himself go into me.  He’s fucking me and asking me if I like all of those guys watching me.  That’s so hot, I have to say yes.  He goes faster and harder then and calls me his dirty little whore and smacks my ass.  I’m really taking a beating now as he continues to smack me.  I ask him if I can suck his cum.  "Can I have it on camera?"  I want to show them.  He says yes, get ready.  I’m moaning and begging him for it.  "Please let me have your cum, ....Please!" He’s pouring sweat on me again, I feel it dropping onto my ass.  One last smack and a hard push...I feel his rhythm start to change and I know he’s close.  He says, “Now baby” and I spin around quickly grabbing his cock and putting it in my mouth.  I suck and stroke him as he cums, feeling it warm in my mouth.  My eyes turn up, he throws his head back and he’s the one moaning loudly now.  I have one hand on his sweaty thigh and I remove it to push the the wet hair off of my face so the camera can see, still sucking his cum.  He’s cumming for a long time and I haven’t spilled a drop.  I hear a deep sigh then his laughter lets me know he’s back with us. I release him and flop onto my back, taking the shot of him down quickly.  He leans over me and pushing his hand over his bald head I get a shower of sweat on my chest.  I jokingly smack him for that bit. 

“That was fun,” I say.

I roll over and I’m face to face with the camera.  I see all the comments praising and thanking us.  I don’t realize it until they say, but they have a full facial view (from the nose down to my breasts on the mattress) of the biggest smile I’ve ever seen me have.  This is probably the smile I usually have after great sex, but I never see it for myself.  It makes me laugh harder to see myself so joyous.  They are writing to me and commenting on my laugh and how it was “that” good, huh?  I say a quick thanks and goodbye, shut it down and head to the shower again.  I get my ass smacked on the way there.

All of this gives us a LOT to talk about. 

Video chatting, Part one

We have this membership to one of those online chat sites.  Last September I was feeling a little adventurous and asked Neo to pay for a year subscription.  I didn’t do a lot of research at the time, thinking that most of those sites were “the same" and I didn't have anyone to ask for advice.  I did want something that had couples we could eventually video sex chat with and this site seemed to have the recipe for that.

So, we joined and made up a little profile, nothing too scandalous.  Just joining was a huge thrill, but that turned quickly into a culture shock on my part once he opened up the main chat room and started clicking on all the cams.  He lined the tiny video squares across the top of the screen fitting at least 15 cams at any given time.  Only one couple was on there out of many.  Lots of profiles that said they were a couple, but only one would be visible on cam.  Then, I started reading the chat.  More than half of the people were talking about every day stuff and I quickly realized it was a community in which you could get to know people and the “regulars” were all having a good time.  I have a group of girlfriends I’ve know online and now IRL for over 11 years, so I know that is a great thing.  But, here’s the thing…I was here for sex, to get turned on, and the opposite was happening!  There was one woman who was just in her kitchen, hanging out, chatting on the phone, and it seemed so odd to me.  Mix that with the countless cams of guys jerking themselves front and center and girls providing a little cleavage and a flash of a boob every once in a while...I honestly didn't know what to think about it.  And let's face it, to the average woman/person some of those guys on there just seem a bit creepy! 

Please don’t get me wrong.  I do not judge these people and I think it’s fabulous they have become friends who can show each other a good time.  I was just not used to this and I had all kinds of internal dialogues going on in my head.  “Do I want to be one of those girls?”  “Does this turn me on?”  “Do I want to make the effort to get to know any of them?”  It was all a bit overwhelming for me and my sexual “issues.”  Again, MY issue not theirs.

We made the effort to give it a little time, perhaps weed through to find some nice couples.  I’ll pat myself on the back here for not giving it up immediately as I certainly would have in the past.  Neo would open the chat room and cams almost daily and I got to recognizing some of the regular girls.  They seemed really nice and fun.  I didn't interact/type in the chat though and he didn’t either.  Maybe just a quick Hi, but something held me back.  Mostly he seemed to just hang there out of curiosity and perhaps to see if I would eventually be enticed to join in.  I think one time I was giving Neo a blowjob in our darkly lit room and he turned the camera on…I didn’t notice much being more than slightly inebriated and I let him enjoy the moment.  But, we never did that again and slowly the site went out of our minds as our actual bedroom time ramped up tenfold. (This is a really good thing!)

Fast forward to now, some nine months later.  A lot has gone on in that period of time and I actually had forgotten about that site we paid for.  Neo has brought up the possibility of having another guy or couple in our sex life.  He even went so far as to ask a close couple who are our friends and openly swinging if they were interested.  The husband was delighted by the idea, but the wife and I are not ready to cross that friend line and possibly/probably ruin things.  I don’t think I will ever be, but you have to look back at all the things I have done lately and think “never say never.”  By the way, that’s frightening!  I told Neo real life friends, especially those in our small circle are out, but that I would be open to chat with some of our online/blogging friends.  It’s an ideal situation for me because essentially they know about me as Nastassja and I feel accepted in that way.  Our circle knows I’m kinky, but not exact details and not about the blog.  The possibility is very exciting and I’m anticipating great things!  We have already had a great chat with someone ;)

Then the other night, Neo remembers “the site” and we have the hatchings of something else entirely new and kinky, with a new frame of mind to go with it…

Should we try again?  Has anything changed? 

Stay tuned for part 2!  It's hot.  With photos.